Makeup

I love makeup. I love wearing it, buying it, putting it on myself, putting it on other people, watching others putting it on. Its an addiction of some sort I guess. Its not that I think I need it. I wear it cause its fun. Cause makeup makes me feel different.
Its like a disguise. A chance to be someone else. You can make yourself up to be anyone. Long thick eyelashes makes me feel flirty and unstoppable. Bright eyeshadows gives me a sense of humor or silliness. I feel light hearted and free while wearing little makeup at all. Thick eyeliner drops me down into this dark hole that I can only climb out of after I wipe my face free of the blackness around my eyes.
Ive been accused of hiding behind my makeup. Using it as a mask. I guess that part is true... but I dont hide behind it. I could easily go without makeup... I just choose not to. I like being a different person each day.
Makeup define my day to day personality. I've long since realized this...

But now Ive started to wonder who is the girl behind the makeup. Who would I be without my masks? I dont know. And thats what scares me so much.